Questions I thought I knew the Answers To...My Purpose

Over the past few months I have come to the conclusion...I have FORGOTTEN how to communicate in such a manner that I am easily "Understood"! I "used to" be such a great communicator that I was told repeatedly that I should take up public speaking as a career. For a long while I thought I would...essentially isn't that what every teacher, professor, minister, survivor of "Great Tragedy" or Christian does, speak publicly? I believed for a while that role was what the LORD had in mind for my life.

BUT I was **GASP** WRONG!

I am not saying I have complete & confident knowledge of HIS perfect will for my life. I am saying the role I described above is not it, at least for the time being. Instead, I am thinking about doing the writing I have been urged to...And I think now, maybe this is how I communicate best anyway. I love spell and grammar check, and let's not forget about that delete key. I also find it more difficult to edit myself verbally. On paper/computer the message I want to send to all who read this is crystallizing [Is that even a word? If not: "I'm pouring out concrete."] even as I type.

I have been warned by a friend or two about revealing too much of myself in a blog because once the thought is out there I can never take it back. Here the thing though, I am not sure I want to, take it back that is. I think of these postings as a statement.

Here I am warts and all.

I want to show and examine and remind myself [and if you read this, you too] GOD isn't done with me yet. AND I don't want HIM to be until HE is ready to call me Home. I am tired of putting the LORD GOD ALMIGHTY in the itty bitty box of my perception. I want MORE! Not more stuff, but MORE GOD and MORE time with HIM and MORE godly friends and MORE of anything HE wants me to have.

So let's choose today, whose side to be are on: the side of pagans OR the side of our HEAVENLY FATHER! I choose the NAME ABOVE ALL NAMES, The LORD! [paraphrase of Joshua 24:15]

I choose today to no longer be on the sideline, but to walk into the HOLY ONE's Arms and to remain there until the war for my soul is done. Join me on my journey and pray that it continues to be ruled by The WAY, The TRUTH, & The LIFE.

Can I get an amen?

God the Father

Next Sunday is Father's Day, and unfortunately I will not see a few faces at church that I usually would get to worship with 2 or 3 times a week.

The "Why?" is a complicated subject. To say the least words possible, for some the idea of celebrating their fathers is painful. I know I have been that missing face upon occasion.

Growing up I had a tough time seeing God the Father. To me a father was not someone to be relied upon. Then roughly half way through my life the Lord blessed me with a miracle, I got a step-father. Now I am NOT saying he is perfect, far from. I'm saying that God provided an example of what a good earthly father could be.

Jesus said that as earthly parents we would not give bad presents [i.e. snakes] to our children; and if we would not, than how much more would God the Father would bestow blessings on us.

Father's Day for me is never a celebration of earthly fathers, as it is for some. I celebrate the Only Father who is reliable 100% of the time. I celebrate God the Father who sent His Only Begotten Son to die in behalf of all of the His adopted sons and daughters.

Finally, I also know that some of those missing faces will still be missing Sunday because of their broken relationships with their fathers has not been healed. But if you read this blog and have these issues, I beg you to cry out to your Heavenly Father for the healing of your heart. Yes, sometimes a relationship with an earthly parent can never be healed. There is a Parent though Who CAN tear away the scars on our beat-up souls and make us a new creation. All you have to do is ask.