Happy Mother's Day!

If you have already started to read this blog, then you know this is my second Mother's Day without my "Mom". I have to admit that I am not as torn up about it as I was the week of her birthday a little while ago. I don't know if that is because of biorhythms or because the whole world knows what this day is, but were clueless about what that day meant to me, or something else entirely. I just know that I am calmer today than I imagined I'd be. 

Last week I heard a sermon that I think everyone of us can benefit from hearing. In the child role, I needed to hear it. As an aunt I need to hear those words. And if I am ever to be a parent [which I see as a possibility now], I REALLY needed to hear this lesson. In fact I think I need to hear these ideas repeatedly throughout my lifetime.

I remember one of my professors at ACU saying that every family was dysfunctional, the degree of that dysfunction was the only variable in a person's life. [Personally I believe, "My family put the 'fun' in dysfunctional."] Every parent and child should know: there are NO perfect parent/child human relationships. Because...

People are sinners. I am a "people." Therefore, I am a sinner. I will fail you as a child, I will fail you as a sister, I will fail you as a friend, I will fail you as an aunt, [and I hope this will be true someday] I will fail you as a wife, I will fail you as a parent...God will not fail you. He is it, the Only. God the Creator cannot fail you. God the Father is perfect. He will never fail.

The sermon I heard last week is true, I have experienced it. A human parent will fail at some point in one's life. A human child will fail you at some point in your life. God YOUR Father will not, God HIS Son will not. The Lord over heaven and earth is the only unconditional love around. The only unfailing Love given to us.

I confess I am human. Yes, I failed as my Mother's child. I know I have failed as an aunt and a role model to the children who have been and continue to be in my life. And yes, even though it does break my heart, if God blesses me with a child to call my own, I will not be able to help myself, in some way, whether large or small, I will fail that child. :(

But God enables me...to ask for your forgiveness, Mom; to ask your forgiveness, those of you I have hurt and maybe even damaged. I do beg Your forgiveness for the hurt I have caused to YOUR other children, Abba. 

"I cry out for Your hand of mercy to heal me, O Lord, my Rock. My Strength in weakness, come rescue me." from the pit.

Rachel

Philippians 4:13...my Mom's favorite